Today Fandango is asking us:
Do you consider yourself today to be more of a spontaneous person or more of a stable person? Which characteristic in others, spontaneity or stability, do you prefer? Why?
Today, I do not consider myself to be either. I know I am definitely the most UN-spontaneous person in the world as I adhere to my routines like superglue and the mere thought of having to make a spontaneous decision causes my brain to open 101 more computer tabs of all the “how would I do”, “what if” and “will I recover from this change” questions. None of which likely affect the action should I have been spontaneous.
On the other hand….I am not stable either. I am prone to rash decisions. I would not go so far as to say those rash decisions are spontaneous, but rather, made out of panic (for lack of a better word).
For example, to me, being spontaneous means a phone call at 3 p.m. to meet a friend for dinner at 5 p.m. Every fiber of my being wants to say yes, but the brain immediately starts with “what about what I laid out for dinner, can I cook it tomorrow, I have a meeting tomorrow, will I have time to cook it tomorrow if I don’t do it today, will it keep another day, this sets my meal plan back a day, I need to let husband know, will he mind, no of course he won’t mind, the dog will need walked, can he wait an extra 1/2 hour, I should leave work now, what if there is traffic on the way home, I will never make it by 5 p.m., do they have food I am hungry for, is she making reservations, do I need a mask to go there-no probably not-it is going to be loud, I am going to be there for hours, I left my pills at home I hope I don’t forget to take them” to which I the respond to said friend practically instantaneously “no, sorry, I am tied up tonight”. Yes, it is INCREDIBLY exhausting.
On the other hand, the unstable rash decisions are…oh look, traffic is slow ahead, I will exit at the next available exit (which, by the way, are few and far between in my rural neck of the woods) and then spend an additional 1/2 hour reminding myself how STUPID I am for forgetting this was the farm road during harvest season. I think those rash decisions tend to make me unstable. Or rather, I feel very unstable after doing something when I should have known better.
So to succinctly answer Fandango’s Provocative Question, I am neither stable nor spontaneous. If I had to choose one and be good at one, it would be stable. It seems to be the calmer of the two to me.