Who I am.
I am no one special. Well, ok…I am special as is all of God’s creations, but in the grand scheme of things, I am nothing to write home about. But speaking of writing – the reason I blog is because I found out a few years ago that I am not alone out there. I deal with somatoform anxiety and atelophobia. This means that instead of getting heart palpitations, stomach distress or other obvious signs of anxiety, I feel calm. Then my body attacks me – for days. As for atelophobia, well, that’s the fear of never being good enough. Not in life, not in my career, not in my faith, not in anything. The noise in my head can be overwhelming. This is why HUMOR is MANDATORY. This is why I write. I don’t expect readers, I don’t expect comments. I just need an outlet for the noise. And, I just hope that if anyone does stumble upon my ramblings, they can also see they are not alone. So that being said…who am I.
I am a mother to two amazing women. Amma (grandmother) to two amazing boys. Wife to my soulmate. I have two stepsons, three son-in-laws, all of whom are the sons of my heart (SOMH). I am a daughter, a sister, a friend and, above all of this, I am a servant of Allah (swt). This is my life.
I am a full time paralegal. I have been a full time paralegal for over 35 years. No lawyers have been harmed in the process. This is my career.
I was a boxer, kickboxer and grappler for many years. I was a runner, hiker and rock climber. I say “was” because age caught up to me (along with an autoimmune condition), that has made me rethink “adventure”. If I walk a mile and can still pull myself out of a chair an hour later, I have accomplished a major feat. I now walk my dog (who am I kidding…he walks me), garden (but no more than 1-2 hours – in case my doctor reads this), kayak, ride my bike and, if I can find the opportunity, I swim.
That’s about it.